She is such a sweetie, completely the opposite of me, perhaps that was the appeal.
I keep trying to not think about it, but I just feel even more broken.
I'm not sure how to deal with this for the next four days.
I feel our whole relationship was a lie. I thought it was the job, something bigger to chase, something more important but I guess it is because I was never the one. I’m the one you didn’t want.
I was okay knowing that I was worth forgoing when you had your dreams to chase. But in the process of doing that, you felt for someone something you didn’t feel for me. You do for someone else what you never do for me. As simple as coffee, or even a Christmas present. I had to beg but she got it so easy. Breaks my heart. I was there pleading for it but she was there receiving it without trying.
It makes me feel silly.